I’m approaching 1 year on T and I feel discouraged. It’s like the changes are barely happening anymore and people keep misgendering me again. In my mind it’s a nightmare scenario where the T is not working anymore and everything is going back to what it used to be. I can’t handle it. I started feeling so much better with myself and now, when I look in the mirror, I feel disgusted with myself again.

Gone because of medical issues, but pretty much back in the game now!

journeyintomanhood:

I see a lot of people wondering how they know if they are ready for hormone replacement therapy. Every person is different but these are the following steps I took (not in any order) before starting testosterone to be sure I was really, truly ready. For context I socially transitioned for two years before starting T. While I feel as though I was ready after about 8 months to begin I was a minor and did not have parental consent. 

Research: I can’t express how important research is. Read medical articles and connect with people online (make sure they’re reliable). Make you sure know and understand everything that HRT will do to you. This doesn’t just mean the benefits (or the things you want to happen) but also the risks. 

Make a List of Questions: While you’re researching questions will probably pop up for you. Keep a list of these questions, some may be answered by doing more research while others will have to wait until you can talk to a doctor. Do not leave any of these questions unanswered. 

Be honest with your doctors: Be honest with the doctors who have a part in your transition. Whether they are the gender therapist or the endocrinologist. Be honest when they ask you questions about your feelings, thoughts, history, lifestyle, etc. You may think lying will get you T but these questions exist for a reason. 

Be honest with yourself: If you have doubts or fears, don’t ignore them. Think about them (write them down) and figure out why you are feeling these things. These doubts and fears will not go away, it’s best to address them before starting hormones. 

Keep living: Sometimes it’s hard to keep living a productive life when you feel stuck because you can’t transition. The thing is, life goes on, and you should go with it. Surround yourself with things that make you happy at the same time as going to school/working/living a productive life. The other side of this is that doctors prefer to hear that you are living a functional life. 

Feel free to ask questions or add to the list. I know my experiences are different but that doesn’t mean some of this stuff can’t translate or help. 

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thatsnothowitworks:

growupdrew:

Uh, what is all this Ira Gray stuff about? I Googled him just to match a face and I remember watching his videos or something; he just looked familiar. I checked out his tag on Tumblr and people are posting links t o his Facebook account and telling him to go die? I don’t really think that’s okay… Nonetheless, someone feel free to inform me aka aid to my laziness.

He sexually assaulted a few people.  I don’t know specifics though.

If you keep scrolling through the tag you’ll find specifics, if that’s what you need, OP.

theotheropinion:

Some toys/packers/prosthetic dicks used for sex are made out of cyberskin. “CyberSkin is the brand-name of a soft elastomer material that is intended to emulate the feel of human skin.” Packers made with cyberskin have many pores, like human skin, and it is not possible to clean these toys completely, so wearing a condom is extremely important if you are going to use it on more than one partner. Even if you are going to use it on one person, I highly recommend wearing a condom every time, because cyberskin is extremely porous, so germs can live and breed literally inside of your penis. 

Read more here, here, and here.

partsprivate asked: From what country is the guy who is making your packer? And how much is 250€ usd? Thanks!

He’s from Sweden. I don’t know if he takes orders though, this counts as a medical prosthetic so you need a refferal from a doctor.
I did some proper checking just now and it’s about 286 €, which is 370 USD. I understand this is very expensive, but it is after all a hand made, custom made, medical prosthetic and not any regular packer.

I really like going to the gym but I’m having a hard time with the locker rooms. It’s OK, but I feel scared all the time. There are no toilets besides the ones in the locker rooms so changing there is not an option. Also I think it would be more suspicious if this young guy changed on the toilet all the time… And I can’t change at home and then go straight to the gym since it’s so fucking cold outside it’s ridiculous and my gym is 25 minutes away. Maybe I’m overreacting, I just don’t want to get kicked out or my ass to get kicked to oblivion.

Another problem is that I compare myself to all the “regular” guys there. I get so aware of my body and how awful it is and that I really, REALLY need a revision.

I’m thinking of going to the gym with a friend of mine who is also trans but he is also so far in his transition that I feel bad over mine being so fucking slow at the moment.

Jesus, can’t I just look like a grown man soon?!